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2024 endpost

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this year we…
⭐ made a game [Perfect Tense: Maggot Therapy]
⭐ published a book [Torture Works]
⭐ puked significant sectors of xrafstarverse [Cupbearer, Leash, Cunt]. my goal was to get out as many different dreams despite my health. there was a successful amount of illumination. and it helped me clarify my next steps.
⭐ made lil rpgmaker game [PureWorld Fantasy]
⭐ drew a lot of [pictures]. still a neophyte but it has been a good hobby because now i look at the world more carefully and the little details, instead of dissociating as much. and it’s important to remain humble…important to suck shit
⭐ made my [site] extra fucking beautiful!! look at that Story page!! thank you Krabat for the animated bg and various propaganda!

and i finished another game and a lot of stories that i’m thrilled…nauseous even, to release in the new year…it feels bright and potent and infectious

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⭐ short list of artists i really enjoyed this year

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like it says in the video…so many times it cheered me up, the letters and conversations and new people i met thru art. it meant a lot having that connection even with my brain leaking from my ears etc. thank you <33

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some of my favorite things of 2024

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very incomplete list. many things made me happy. but it wouldn’t mean anything if it weren’t a short list.

✦ Clinical Trial

game of this year and the next! i’m not joking.

✦ Evan’s art

from the darkest pit to the sparkliest salamanders <3

✦ Anshin’s comics/art

the Nikolay comics are an especial favorite. extremely scary, and playing with previous expectations to create great tension. but they are all great. devastatingly real feeling violence…and cuteness.

✦ Holy Ravioli art

based based based based

✦ Vich art

raw fucking power and fine fine tuning
(and drew a really beautiful Leash tableaux that galvanized me in the early uncertain days)

December Prism Roundup

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✦ Serious Weakness personality quiz

for the first time ever, scientists have discovered a way to analyze your Serious Weakness personality…

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✦ cupbearer to the gods act IV

On that note, Krabat sent me a genuine Veau in the washing machine!!
together we will destroy pederasty through the power of merchandising! ✌️✨

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Ragweed Roundup

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⭐ thanks everyone who got TORTURE WORKS! it is a very PRETTY BOOK inside and out, made with GREAT LOVE. it is a good way to read my stories of the last decade in an attractive format, and an auspicious TRANSITION to the next phase of our operation, a new wave of fresh, unclotted fluid.

I’m very proud of the layout and everyone who worked on it. I chose Averia Libre because it is a rare font that has personality but is also readable. I hope it added to the dreamy, sweaty feel…

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cunt toward enemy season 1 notes

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💥 SPOILERS FOR CUNT TOWARD ENEMY 💥

COLOR

Bombs are associated with “colored wires”.
So everyone has their own color.

Lazur = blue
Cortázar = the language fits one of his backgrounds and it means something like “old stable”

Rubicon = a menacing but beautiful red word. Don’t cross him…

Calendula was the obvious name for the third character, as it is an orange flower (opposite on the color wheel from Lazur’s blue), means little clock (time is a theme of the book and Calendula seeks to minimize and control time), and it kind of sounds like Caligula. Triple significance.

ELEMENTS

A bomb is impossible to fit in the brain. So I explode it into Time + Destruction. These are impossible to fit as well, so I divide again.

Everyone has a wristwatch.
Everyone carries a countdown on their arm.
The mundane reflects the unspeakable.

Knowing these simple elements allows me to extrapolate the connective tissue between everything.

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Serious Weakness aftermath

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“Art, in fact, can be nothing but violence, cruelty, and injustice.”
-Marinetti

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Simone Weil wrote, “Imaginary evil is romantic and varied; real evil is gloomy, monotonous, barren, boring.”
Serious Weakness tries to do both.

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⚠️ (massive spoilers for Serious Weakness ahead) ⚠️

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I thought it would just be a quick story. I called the document:

later I named it Serious Weakness as a translation of myasthenia gravis.
my runner-up title was Blind Cleavage, a play on the art conservation term (“Blind cleavage…is a separation that has no visible rupture, but one can tell there has been an underlying separation of layers.” (the weakness Insul detects in Trianon under the mask)), crossed with Trianon’s mutilated chest.
X_X. blind cleavage!!

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