February: Cancer Angel Constellations

my story ANGELBRIDE is out now, as part of SLAKE HOUSE, a 250+ pg illustrated PDF w/ CYOA paths n hot pics by many talented illustrators ⛪️🦋
✦ religious ero-horror w/ art by @CoeyKuhn
✦ institutionalization, boys, torture, mutilation, ovipositors?
✦ multiple endings + many choices along the way

🪽 FLY DEEPER INTO TEH MYSTERY>… 🪽

Encore

Cancer opens his lunchbox. There is a nice meal inside, separated by plastic compartments, packed by his foster mother like specialized tools or military ordinance. White bread crushing mayo and green tomato, pressed down by maternal fingers until white goo drips from the edges, and a side of chopped-up hot dogs with banana ketchup. It is one of those special holidays that won’t matter when the sun is obscured by flies and there is a reason for those flies. But for now, consumer electronics.

His scout uniform is a dark flower on the green picnic area, which has a wonderful view of the pink ocean. A path of desire has been worn up the hill.

He takes the durian from his backpack. He eats this fruit to train himself to be around the man, who sweats shamefully with an inner poison.

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Cancer’s Prize

They went up the big wheel and Cancer tried very hard not to throw up but the wheel went up so high and he didn’t know it stopped at the top so he thought it was broken, and then it lurched and groaned with the weight of itself shaking swinging wasn’t it should it be like that and he and he and it got all over his nice clean lacy white shirt, ruined…

A boy goes to a seaside fun park. He meets his teacher, his scouting instructor, who, gawky and fastidious, seems more suited to this kind of park than the other one.

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2024 endpost

this year we…
⭐ made a game [Perfect Tense: Maggot Therapy]
⭐ published a book [Torture Works]
⭐ puked significant sectors of xrafstarverse [Cupbearer, Leash, Cunt]. my goal was to get out as many different dreams despite my health. there was a successful amount of illumination. and it helped me clarify my next steps.
⭐ made lil rpgmaker game [PureWorld Fantasy]
⭐ drew a lot of [pictures]. still a neophyte but it has been a good hobby because now i look at the world more carefully and the little details, instead of dissociating as much. and it’s important to remain humble…important to suck shit
⭐ made my [site] extra fucking beautiful!! look at that Story page!! thank you Krabat for the animated bg and various propaganda!

and i finished another game and a lot of stories that i’m thrilled…nauseous even, to release in the new year…it feels bright and potent and infectious

short list of artists i really enjoyed this year

like it says in the video…so many times it cheered me up, the letters and conversations and new people i met thru art. it meant a lot having that connection even with my brain leaking from my ears etc. thank you <33

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some of my favorite things of 2024

very incomplete list. many things made me happy. but it wouldn’t mean anything if it weren’t a short list.

Clinical Trial

game of this year and the next! i’m not joking.

Evan’s art

from the darkest pit to the sparkliest salamanders <3

Anshin’s comics/art

the Nikolay comics are an especial favorite. extremely scary, and playing with previous expectations to create great tension. but they are all great. devastatingly real feeling violence…and cuteness.

Holy Ravioli art

based based based based

Vich art

raw fucking power and fine fine tuning
(and drew a really beautiful Leash tableaux that galvanized me in the early uncertain days)

December Prism Roundup

Serious Weakness personality quiz

for the first time ever, scientists have discovered a way to analyze your Serious Weakness personality…

cupbearer to the gods act IV

On that note, Krabat sent me a genuine Veau in the washing machine!!
together we will destroy pederasty through the power of merchandising! ✌️✨

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acid

I was trying to free a woman from a barrel of acid she was chained to. I’m part of a team trying to do this. we struggle on the rocks of a wide river enclosed by steep wooded slopes. cliffs hang over us, and a high metal bridge. acid begins to drip from tubes and pipes and burn our flesh as we try to save her. we are slipping into the water and our skin is melting and we keep trying.

I lay in bed listening to music. my emotions get so big I can hardly hold it. my whole life I was crushed under a huge sadness. I try to fly free. My highest goal is to create something beautiful. it breaks me as it moves through me. it puts me back together. I need to claw and hurt and show. I am weak but stubborn. Everything I predicted as a child came true. dreams are the hardest thing to hold onto because they hurt the hands and the heart, deeply. I need to show you…

throat secrets

This is part of 18ft Leash: Scout’s Honor but it stands alone too. picture by evan.

When your parents adopted, you finally had someone to share your secrets with. Two boys whispering in the nooks of a big, sterile house that still seemed like no one lived there, transplanted whole from civilization to this diseased atoll and sealed up with air conditioning.

Cancer wasn’t some piece of snot you grew up with, already tired of you, desensitized to your specialness. He was a brother gift-wrapped and opened on xmas day. Eager as a puppy, so impressed by everything you showed him. He didn’t know how to use a microwave, and it made you feel superior, and you knew he wouldn’t make fun of anything you said because he didn’t know better. But it was the weak stomach that really brought you together.

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