On the contrary: the effect of the bomb is greater than any conceivable end, for this end will necessarily be destroyed by its effect. Every end will be destroyed together with the entire world in which ‘ends and means’ had existed.
— Gunther Anders
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Your teacher is always staring at you. There’s a test, but you can’t focus. Spare pencils are lined up on his desk, pastel pink. He keeps them sharp, and pointed at you.
Snap. Your pencil broke. You need another. You walk up and take one. A whiff of jasmine. A tight gold band clasping the red bud of an eraser. Drag it across your mistakes.
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Inanna, daughter of the Moon, put on her regal garment, hung a ravishing sash around her neck,
With fearsome, terrifying radiance she bedizened her brow,
She drew a carnelian necklace with rosettes around her divine throat,
She made a hero’s gesture with the seven-lobed mace in her right hand.
She set her foot on the deep blue step.
— The Exaltation of Inanna
my story ANGELBRIDE is out now, as part of SLAKE HOUSE, a 250+ pg illustrated PDF w/ CYOA paths n hot pics by many talented illustrators ⛪️🦋
✦ religious ero-horror w/ art by @CoeyKuhn
✦ institutionalization, boys, torture, mutilation, ovipositors?
✦ multiple endings + many choices along the way
Cancer opens his lunchbox. There is a nice meal inside, separated by plastic compartments, packed by his foster mother like specialized tools or military ordinance. White bread crushing mayo and green tomato, pressed down by maternal fingers until white goo drips from the edges, and a side of chopped-up hot dogs with banana ketchup. It is one of those special holidays that won’t matter when the sun is obscured by flies and there is a reason for those flies. But for now, consumer electronics.
His scout uniform is a dark flower on the green picnic area, which has a wonderful view of the pink ocean. A path of desire has been worn up the hill.
He takes the durian from his backpack. He eats this fruit to train himself to be around the man, who sweats shamefully with an inner poison.
🪰 more 🪰They went up the big wheel and Cancer tried very hard not to throw up but the wheel went up so high and he didn’t know it stopped at the top so he thought it was broken, and then it lurched and groaned with the weight of itself shaking swinging wasn’t it should it be like that and he and he and it got all over his nice clean lacy white shirt, ruined…
A boy goes to a seaside fun park. He meets his teacher, his scouting instructor, who, gawky and fastidious, seems more suited to this kind of park than the other one.
🎡 more 🎡He can tell the date is going terribly.
She neatly cuts her steak, exposing a cross-section of the shockingly pink meat. It’s a hot day. They should have eaten inside.
“So you work for an animal rights organization.”
“Yes,” he replies.
“And my work involves experimenting on animals.”
🐇👁️💉 MORE 💉👁️🐰this year we…
⭐ made a game [Perfect Tense: Maggot Therapy]
⭐ published a book [Torture Works]
⭐ puked significant sectors of xrafstarverse [Cupbearer, Leash, Cunt]. my goal was to get out as many different dreams despite my health. there was a successful amount of illumination. and it helped me clarify my next steps.
⭐ made lil rpgmaker game [PureWorld Fantasy]
⭐ drew a lot of [pictures]. still a neophyte but it has been a good hobby because now i look at the world more carefully and the little details, instead of dissociating as much. and it’s important to remain humble…important to suck shit
⭐ made my [site] extra fucking beautiful!! look at that Story page!! thank you Krabat for the animated bg and various propaganda!
and i finished another game and a lot of stories that i’m thrilled…nauseous even, to release in the new year…it feels bright and potent and infectious
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⭐ short list of artists i really enjoyed this year
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like it says in the video…so many times it cheered me up, the letters and conversations and new people i met thru art. it meant a lot having that connection even with my brain leaking from my ears etc. thank you <33
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very incomplete list. many things made me happy. but it wouldn’t mean anything if it weren’t a short list.
game of this year and the next! i’m not joking.
from the darkest pit to the sparkliest salamanders <3
the Nikolay comics are an especial favorite. extremely scary, and playing with previous expectations to create great tension. but they are all great. devastatingly real feeling violence…and cuteness.
based based based based
✦ Vich art
raw fucking power and fine fine tuning
(and drew a really beautiful Leash tableaux that galvanized me in the early uncertain days)
✦ Serious Weakness personality quiz
for the first time ever, scientists have discovered a way to analyze your Serious Weakness personality…
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✦ cupbearer to the gods act IV
On that note, Krabat sent me a genuine Veau in the washing machine!!
together we will destroy pederasty through the power of merchandising! ✌️✨
An endless breath. At first he thought it was his own. But his air is congealed, unmoving, stuck in his nostrils and throat like clear resin.
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