106 entries.
wrote on December16 in the hell 2024
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12;46AM angeltime
i love all ur work <3
reading it actually allows me to feel all these things i'd longed to find in bizarro fiction and yaoi. i never knew that it could be found, or that it was the same thing. understanding now makes me feel a lot more understood thank u very much!!
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thank you <33 so happy you could find it here, this precious thing
wrote on December13 in the hell 2024
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4;22AM angeltime
your stuff is just so cool! getting serious weakness for christmas and i am vibrating w/ excitement. been reading the past works to prepare. ty for the literature <33
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thank you so much!! i hope you will enjoy this marvelous xmas present! <3333
wrote on December10 in the hell 2024
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3;34AM angeltime
❤ your work👏
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thank you!!
wrote on October9 in the hell 2024
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10;03PM angeltime
I've been following your work for a long time and it's always been super meaningful to me as someone who has always sort of existed outside of things, and INNOCENTverse is really hitting me hard because I. um. like boys. I'm scared out of my mind just typing that because I'm not sure I haven't completely misinterpreted everything but I wanted to let you know how much it means to see it written about in a way that like... leaves space for the possibility of empathy at least? Thank you. Sorry if I'm off the mark.
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yeah dude we're gay as hell up in here this is boy love central!!
wrote on September19 in the hell 2024
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6;28PM angeltime
i just wanted to say ur art means a lot to me and i find it oddly comforting like its so dark that it makes me feel a bit more okay about gross things i think about sometimes you are a very important person and i truly believe that- hol up i gotta go take a shit brb
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thank you <3 yeah gross things really comfort me, like i was always something that lived there instead or was safe like a tapeworm. good luck!!
wrote on September11 in the hell 2024
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8;40PM angeltime
hi charity, just wanted to stop by. i'm working on my own website & am working on my links page, & wanted to see if u had a cutesy 88x33 button or whatever to link. haha u don't have one but i will link u anyway ^_^
anyway, u don't know me, but ur site has been a big inspo for me for a while now, & i finally finished reading Serious Weakness back in June. it's stuck with me these last few months. hope u are well & i plan to read more of ur work
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aw, i'm so glad you enjoyed the web's site and SW. i am well, thank you. i whipped up a quick little button, here you go!
wrote on August15 in the hell 2024
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5;46PM angeltime
just finished 'sick forever' and am now exploring the writhing mass of your website. i enjoy it. i've ought to read and play more.. highly entranced
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🤮💜
wrote on August11 in the hell 2024
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11;41PM angeltime
yesterday i got gay married to my beautiful transsexual wife
today i replayed CRY$TAL WARRIOR KE$HA and remembered how much your shit rocked my world when i was closeted
thanks for helping me survive the closet with your work, even if that was not your intention
survival was worth it <3
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<333 i'm so glad you survived!
wrote on July28 in the hell 2024
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4;31AM angeltime
I'm high on amphetamines and I'm gonna go read all your free stories and try to get through as much of your books that I own before I run out of blue dust. Been a fan since at least 2018 but I lose track of time
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haha stay safe!! thank you!
wrote on July15 in the hell 2024
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9;42PM angeltime
your writing gives me the strength to care less about the things that don't matter and more about the things that do. 18 foot leash put new gyri in my brain and cunt toward enemy is like looking in a mirror. good work great work can't wait for more
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i love leash!! 💜 thank you, i'm so glad to hear!<33
wrote on July3 in the hell 2024
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10;35PM angeltime
i played thru your twine game 'with those we love alive' today at the recommendation of my friend fran while under the influence of mushrooms and while i didn't learn anything about myself i didn't already know it is good to be reminded of these things. the last time i did mushrooms i read my girlfriend 'psycho nymph exile' until she came. i've broke up with her since then for reasons i'd rather not go into here but regardless i have come to view the book as an instruction manual of sorts on how to live one's life. i'm so happy i quit my job so i could read more even if it fucks up everything for me lmao. i hope you are doing okay these days ~ <3
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it is good to reminded. the rediscovery never ends...
nice to know the path a book can travel.
i'm doing great, thank you 💜
wrote on July2 in the hell 2024
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5;28AM angeltime
just devoured psycho nymph exile after I saw it mentioned in a youtube vid. kinda feel like part of my mind was devoured and shat out in a new shape (I absolutely mean this as a compliment). there's an absolute unreality to certain ways of existing in this world and even if mine isn't like vellus or isidol's there's still this kinship of Knowing and drifting in the same dissociated abyss. it helps. absolutely gonna be thinking about that one for a while + bound to dig into your other stuff too
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yum yum abyss thank you 💜
wrote on May22 in the hell 2024
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7;46AM angeltime
Seriweak therapy girl here. Since reading Ive started to go by Tria with some close friends. Ive been wanting to shift to a more feminine name for a while now and there's something really nice and entrancingly personal about the circumstances of that name in the book.
Ive also since moved halfway across the country and your work makes me feel so seen that my search for a new therapist is at least partially dictated by finding someone that I would feel comfortable talking about it with. You were right; it really is the first line of therapeutic intervention <3
Admin Reply by: xrafstar
Tria is a beautiful name, thank you <3
yes, it is so important to be able to talk about those things. I hope you find a good one and can feel understood.
wrote on March9 in the hell 2024
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6;38AM angeltime
I read Serious Weakness about a month ago. Various subtle aftershocks are still resolving but the main effect was that some faultline finally gave way in my mind and now for the first time in my life I feel like a real human being. I cannot properly express my gratitude.
Also... 1/3 of the way through, I was already at this point pretty disconcerted with how strongly and precisely I was relating to Trianon, and then his internal stream of consciousness spiraled off into "Tenser, said the Tensor." This was fucking terrifying for me, because I have also read The Demolished Man and I've gone into that song myself when stressed for ten years. Congratulations on the extraordinary hard read.
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the Demolished Man is AMAZING. and i love The Stars My Destination, it has so many fun setpieces and such a killer chuuni mood. Bester is so FUN compared to other old writers. the last thing i read was Fondly Fahrenheit, also really good.
i’m so fucking pleased that the Tenser shit got you. there are all kinds of tiny, barely conscious decisions in writing a big book and most of the time you never know if they paid off.
thank you for this message. i was filled with a big jagged happiness and gratitude that i can share things with others and have them be received, connections in a dark universe.
wrote on February20 in the hell 2024
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11;08PM angeltime
i left my heart in the triple lamia contrition puzzlebox. thank you for a hundred disgusting perfect eternities, wishing you a hundred more.
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💜⌛🐍
wrote on February3 in the hell 2024
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12;29AM angeltime
I wouldn't be the same person, without your work. Thank you <3
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💜💜💜 happy
wrote on January21 in the hell 2024
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12;34PM angeltime
It made me think about the body as an object, though in my head physicality is a process, too. I mean a specious present forever, individual suffering that eclipses the Human Experience... Or, I mean, the hyperobject that exists only in the parochial worldview but breaks it... Have you played Baroque (1998)? "Everyone is distorted, so I think it’s a mistake to condemn anyone for their distortion" ... 666,666,666 angelic foetuses tortured into existence...
I think you and your work are so cool. It felt like a new kind of experience with written media when I bought Serious Weakness on a whim late at night and finished it sometime the next morning, trying not to get carsick
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baroque is so emotional ;; if i had to pick a line from a game to represent my work, it would be that one. everyone is born in hell...
i'm glad you enjoyed serious weakness. carsickness seems like an appropriate status effect <3
wrote on January17 in the hell 2024
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11;18PM angeltime
not to be a dramatic bitch but your work is why i want to keep living
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thank you, i love when organisms live 💜
wrote on January11 in the hell 2024
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8;33AM angeltime
your writing reads like bastardized mitski lyrics and this is the highest compliment i can give any worldly being. living or dead. mortal or immortal. you have this sorta fluid mastery over solid concepts that makes my brain liquify. everything i read from you is bath salts and datura. thank you for the best trip of my life. again and again and again
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haha thank you for joining me on the endless bad good heaven hell trip
bath salts and datura yessss
never saw a solid i didn't think would be a better fluid
<3
wrote on January11 in the hell 2024
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7;13AM angeltime
i luv everything of urs ive spent time with. reality falls into an understanding shape and i am comforted as even my body reveals its cohesiveness.
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💜🌌