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I've been coming back to HoneyToxi a lot recently simply due to having to read so many pieces with a surface level elementary understanding of Games and Gamers as a social/tactile phenomenon. I still find it cute how the term Seriweak took off, 899 days since I first started using it. Call it vain and self-centered, but my permanent mark on the terminology of it all beats my plastic heart. In Skyrim is so fantastic in how it works with sexual exchange and government gamification of life. Stupid waymos keep failing to run over me. Seeing the joy around your top surgery rocks, you look like a schweinchen31 character... I'm glad you've had positive comments on my modeling of the Bugboy Fashion you've released.

just finished seriweak for the first time today... so many thoughts but it's not often that a novel gives me that teeth-tingling good-sick feeling... it's the immortality chimerism!!! tria + insul forever <<<333

finished Serious Weakness today, probably the only novel that long I've read and I did it in only 2 days after not being able to read for very long for years. thank you porpentine.

Long time listener, first time caller! Picked up Serious Weakness a while back and a few chapters in, I thought "this is a work I have to put down and return to later." Months pass, and I got to see different iterations of your art online: in multimedia and collaborative work you were a part of years ago, in anthologies (Slake House!!), and then finally here, in the short stories you publish through blogposts. I read quite a few in one night and the Coffee Shop AU was that one work that made me go "it's not quite time to revisit Serious Weakness, but /almost/"... It's hard to explain (like all good things!), but it's like all of these works are different memories and worlds that smell and feel and hurt and comfort in particular ways that my heart then goes "I think I can try walking up to this other work that caught my eye again"... or I just try something at complete random and it forms a core memory of when I read it asjsjj. The commenter from South Africa said it better, but these are works that all feel and smell alive. Even just the flow of the writing... the unexpected-yet-emotionally/sensorially-logical Style feels and smells like.... a brain... eyes... bodies. I left off in Serious Weakness somewhere in that apartment by the... ocean? I think? And now I'm ready to return and see/feel/smell that world again. I still remember being shocked and amazed when the protagonist had to take more pills than expected at the start... I don't know why, but big-small things like that are what always cut deep in your work to me. ... Though I also never want to sound like I'm expect your work to deliver anything in specific. I'm just happy and curious to see what you've made and what you'll make next. The internet feels like a smaller, kinder place Not Just with a blog and comments section like this, but also because I've gotten to see your work over the years (hello, digital neighbor!), and we even got to be a part of the same anthology together. Best wishes. 🌈

i wanted to reply on twitter to tweets you had made, about you being attacked by ragebait accounts (scum) and left a little message on one tweet (where I said I would post here) but twitter wouldn't let me express myself properly with their limited wordcount (and i hate restraining myself when typing, especially when it's from the heart) had I not read Serious Weakness (and felt far more understood than any other work of fiction has made me felt) I wouldn't have written 90k+ words of gay horror inspired by your work, and subsequently explored my identity further and gone from being a nonbinary transfemme, to being a demiboy (and I am very happy with identifying as an androgynous vulnerable boy, in my own unique non-binary non-conforming way.) Your work inspires me intensely. I have been re-reading Serious Weakness (my physical copy!!! which is wonderful to have on my nightstand, and feels wonderful to read physically) and now, even moreso than before, it makes me feel understood in my alienation and my autism. And, I love catching little details I missed when I first read it. my point is that you are creating art that inspires people like me, and makes people like me feel understood and wanted, and giving us something we can relate to and love. everything you are doing is for the better. Had I not read Serious Weakness, I would not have been inspired to create, and I would not have discovered something new and beautiful about myself. I also would not have read a work that made me feel sympathized with and understood. People who disparage you, for your sympathies or your art or your identity, are scum who contribute nothing but pain and misery. You on the other hand, better the world with your creativity. I am still, on and off, writing the same work I mentioned back in April (as mentioned before it has reached over 90k words. it's crazy that i've gone this far with it.) I also am planning a spinoff work of my own work, though have not done much with it besides making a grimy masochistic cokehead character for use in the Cyberpunk TTRPG (who I love very much and have played often with.) Thank you for writing Serious Weakness. Had you not written it, I wouldn't have written any of this, and I wouldn't have further explored my identity. Please keep creating - I look forward to your upcoming game, and look forward to continuing with reading through your works. Serious Weakness is, probably, with little contest, the best book I've ever read. Keep creating and bettering the world with your disturbing, disgusting works. It makes me feel understood and I love it. Sincerely, Mary

i recently saw that you had an exhibit at kunsthalle zürich and as someone that lives in that vague area i just wanted to say how it made me feel to see you near my home... years ago i joined an english language writing workshop because of your work and just today i received a little booklet of competition writing which also features me in it... what i want to say with this tangent is thank you for writing, im glad your delightful parasite is spreading globally and. lots of hearts and worms.

hey i'm a femme dyke from the faraway """3rd world"" and i want to say ive been obsessed w u since my early 20s... i think you are one of the most talented n daring writers of the apocalyptic age. as i crawl back to writing after yrs of neglecting it in favour of medicine its your work i turn to to remind myself What Writing Can Be if u r brave enough if u have enough liver! im a doctor working in an emergency room now and im generally very bored by writing thats "gory" or "visceral" or "body horror" bc it is always so tame and dull and silly in comparison to what im blessed to see in my work but YOU!! get it!! you write about the body turned inside out in a way that i can smell and feel!! thank u!! u make me feel like a bloodsoaked sleepless deadeyed woman shaped thing like me has a place in Writing maybe!! if u ever come to south africa hmu ill teach u how to put in a chest drain! thank u for existing <3

wish i had the guts you've got to put all this genius out there

Hi, trans enbygirl here, named Mary Jane. I'd bought and read Serious Weakness a couple weeks ago, and subsequently bought and read 18 Foot Leash (will try to read the rest of the stories from that collection soon.) I enjoyed Serious Weakness immensely, it's one of my favourite books now, and my favourite (erotica? psychological horror? both? neither? transcends both.) story. It left me wanting more of both characters, and got me inspired to start on writing my own gay-twink-torment-destruction-captivity story in the same sorta vein of psychological themes in erotica. The use of autism and physical disability is something that stuck pretty heavily with me, not to mention pretty much everything going on with Insul. Reminded me a lot of Killing Stalking - which I remember seeing you mention when I looked over the retrospective. I think Serious Weakness is really something special, and I'll be hard-pressed to find something as deeply engrossing and disturbing anytime soon. I'll see about picking up a physical copy, too; I'd love being able to read it in person. I don't have a ton to say about 18 Foot Leash. It wasn't to my personal taste, but I still admired the writing and imagery and thought you did fantastic with it. I look forward to reading the other stories from Torture Works. In any case, I love the writing of yours I have read so far. It's inspiring me to write again - the story I mentioned working on before is probably the further I have got into writing a single work in months, maybe years, or maybe ever. I think I have you to thank for that, giving me inspiration and motivation to create a work that's in line with the sort of things I want to read. Apologies for the overly lengthy message, I had a lot to say about Serious Weakness. I really loved it and thought it was a fantastic work of horror and drama and erotica. Please keep making such creative works, all I've seen so far is great. Thanks, Mary Jane

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