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i wanted to reply on twitter to tweets you had made, about you being attacked by ragebait accounts (scum) and left a little message on one tweet (where I said I would post here) but twitter wouldn't let me express myself properly with their limited wordcount (and i hate restraining myself when typing, especially when it's from the heart) had I not read Serious Weakness (and felt far more understood than any other work of fiction has made me felt) I wouldn't have written 90k+ words of gay horror inspired by your work, and subsequently explored my identity further and gone from being a nonbinary transfemme, to being a demiboy (and I am very happy with identifying as an androgynous vulnerable boy, in my own unique non-binary non-conforming way.) Your work inspires me intensely. I have been re-reading Serious Weakness (my physical copy!!! which is wonderful to have on my nightstand, and feels wonderful to read physically) and now, even moreso than before, it makes me feel understood in my alienation and my autism. And, I love catching little details I missed when I first read it. my point is that you are creating art that inspires people like me, and makes people like me feel understood and wanted, and giving us something we can relate to and love. everything you are doing is for the better. Had I not read Serious Weakness, I would not have been inspired to create, and I would not have discovered something new and beautiful about myself. I also would not have read a work that made me feel sympathized with and understood. People who disparage you, for your sympathies or your art or your identity, are scum who contribute nothing but pain and misery. You on the other hand, better the world with your creativity. I am still, on and off, writing the same work I mentioned back in April (as mentioned before it has reached over 90k words. it's crazy that i've gone this far with it.) I also am planning a spinoff work of my own work, though have not done much with it besides making a grimy masochistic cokehead character for use in the Cyberpunk TTRPG (who I love very much and have played often with.) Thank you for writing Serious Weakness. Had you not written it, I wouldn't have written any of this, and I wouldn't have further explored my identity. Please keep creating - I look forward to your upcoming game, and look forward to continuing with reading through your works. Serious Weakness is, probably, with little contest, the best book I've ever read. Keep creating and bettering the world with your disturbing, disgusting works. It makes me feel understood and I love it. Sincerely, Mary

i recently saw that you had an exhibit at kunsthalle zürich and as someone that lives in that vague area i just wanted to say how it made me feel to see you near my home... years ago i joined an english language writing workshop because of your work and just today i received a little booklet of competition writing which also features me in it... what i want to say with this tangent is thank you for writing, im glad your delightful parasite is spreading globally and. lots of hearts and worms.

hey i'm a femme dyke from the faraway """3rd world"" and i want to say ive been obsessed w u since my early 20s... i think you are one of the most talented n daring writers of the apocalyptic age. as i crawl back to writing after yrs of neglecting it in favour of medicine its your work i turn to to remind myself What Writing Can Be if u r brave enough if u have enough liver! im a doctor working in an emergency room now and im generally very bored by writing thats "gory" or "visceral" or "body horror" bc it is always so tame and dull and silly in comparison to what im blessed to see in my work but YOU!! get it!! you write about the body turned inside out in a way that i can smell and feel!! thank u!! u make me feel like a bloodsoaked sleepless deadeyed woman shaped thing like me has a place in Writing maybe!! if u ever come to south africa hmu ill teach u how to put in a chest drain! thank u for existing <3

wish i had the guts you've got to put all this genius out there

Hi, trans enbygirl here, named Mary Jane. I'd bought and read Serious Weakness a couple weeks ago, and subsequently bought and read 18 Foot Leash (will try to read the rest of the stories from that collection soon.) I enjoyed Serious Weakness immensely, it's one of my favourite books now, and my favourite (erotica? psychological horror? both? neither? transcends both.) story. It left me wanting more of both characters, and got me inspired to start on writing my own gay-twink-torment-destruction-captivity story in the same sorta vein of psychological themes in erotica. The use of autism and physical disability is something that stuck pretty heavily with me, not to mention pretty much everything going on with Insul. Reminded me a lot of Killing Stalking - which I remember seeing you mention when I looked over the retrospective. I think Serious Weakness is really something special, and I'll be hard-pressed to find something as deeply engrossing and disturbing anytime soon. I'll see about picking up a physical copy, too; I'd love being able to read it in person. I don't have a ton to say about 18 Foot Leash. It wasn't to my personal taste, but I still admired the writing and imagery and thought you did fantastic with it. I look forward to reading the other stories from Torture Works. In any case, I love the writing of yours I have read so far. It's inspiring me to write again - the story I mentioned working on before is probably the further I have got into writing a single work in months, maybe years, or maybe ever. I think I have you to thank for that, giving me inspiration and motivation to create a work that's in line with the sort of things I want to read. Apologies for the overly lengthy message, I had a lot to say about Serious Weakness. I really loved it and thought it was a fantastic work of horror and drama and erotica. Please keep making such creative works, all I've seen so far is great. Thanks, Mary Jane

wow cancer really is like vomit jesus

i love all ur work <3 reading it actually allows me to feel all these things i'd longed to find in bizarro fiction and yaoi. i never knew that it could be found, or that it was the same thing. understanding now makes me feel a lot more understood thank u very much!!

❤ your work👏

i just wanted to say ur art means a lot to me and i find it oddly comforting like its so dark that it makes me feel a bit more okay about gross things i think about sometimes you are a very important person and i truly believe that- hol up i gotta go take a shit brb