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rpgmaker adventure/horror/sensory toy game about brothers with scionic powers
🌦️ more 🌦️Author: xrafstar
February: Cancer Angel Constellations
my story ANGELBRIDE is out now, as part of SLAKE HOUSE, a 250+ pg illustrated PDF w/ CYOA paths n hot pics by many talented illustrators ⛪️🦋
✦ religious ero-horror w/ art by @CoeyKuhn
✦ institutionalization, boys, torture, mutilation, ovipositors?
✦ multiple endings + many choices along the way
Encore
Cancer opens his lunchbox. There is a nice meal inside, separated by plastic compartments, packed by his foster mother like specialized tools or military ordinance. White bread crushing mayo and green tomato, pressed down by maternal fingers until white goo drips from the edges, and a side of chopped-up hot dogs with banana ketchup. It is one of those special holidays that won’t matter when the sun is obscured by flies and there is a reason for those flies. But for now, consumer electronics.
His scout uniform is a dark flower on the green picnic area, which has a wonderful view of the pink ocean. A path of desire has been worn up the hill.
He takes the durian from his backpack. He eats this fruit to train himself to be around the man, who sweats shamefully with an inner poison.
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They went up the big wheel and Cancer tried very hard not to throw up but the wheel went up so high and he didn’t know it stopped at the top so he thought it was broken, and then it lurched and groaned with the weight of itself shaking swinging wasn’t it should it be like that and he and he and it got all over his nice clean lacy white shirt, ruined…
A boy goes to a seaside fun park. He meets his teacher, his scouting instructor, who, gawky and fastidious, seems more suited to this kind of park than the other one.
🎡 more 🎡Rabbits Cry Different
He can tell the date is going terribly.
She neatly cuts her steak, exposing a cross-section of the shockingly pink meat. It’s a hot day. They should have eaten inside.
“So you work for an animal rights organization.”
“Yes,” he replies.
“And my work involves experimenting on animals.”
🐇👁️💉 MORE 💉👁️🐰2024 endpost
this year we…
⭐ made a game [Perfect Tense: Maggot Therapy]
⭐ published a book [Torture Works]
⭐ puked significant sectors of xrafstarverse [Cupbearer, Leash, Cunt]. my goal was to get out as many different dreams despite my health. there was a successful amount of illumination. and it helped me clarify my next steps.
⭐ made lil rpgmaker game [PureWorld Fantasy]
⭐ drew a lot of [pictures]. still a neophyte but it has been a good hobby because now i look at the world more carefully and the little details, instead of dissociating as much. and it’s important to remain humble…important to suck shit
⭐ made my [site] extra fucking beautiful!! look at that Story page!! thank you Krabat for the animated bg and various propaganda!
and i finished another game and a lot of stories that i’m thrilled…nauseous even, to release in the new year…it feels bright and potent and infectious
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⭐ short list of artists i really enjoyed this year
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like it says in the video…so many times it cheered me up, the letters and conversations and new people i met thru art. it meant a lot having that connection even with my brain leaking from my ears etc. thank you <33
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some of my favorite things of 2024
very incomplete list. many things made me happy. but it wouldn’t mean anything if it weren’t a short list.
game of this year and the next! i’m not joking.
from the darkest pit to the sparkliest salamanders <3
the Nikolay comics are an especial favorite. extremely scary, and playing with previous expectations to create great tension. but they are all great. devastatingly real feeling violence…and cuteness.
based based based based
✦ Vich art
raw fucking power and fine fine tuning
(and drew a really beautiful Leash tableaux that galvanized me in the early uncertain days)
December Prism Roundup
✦ Serious Weakness personality quiz
for the first time ever, scientists have discovered a way to analyze your Serious Weakness personality…
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✦ cupbearer to the gods act IV
On that note, Krabat sent me a genuine Veau in the washing machine!!
together we will destroy pederasty through the power of merchandising! ✌️✨
Cupbearer to the Gods
cunt toward enemy [s3e4] sludge/bbb
An endless breath. At first he thought it was his own. But his air is congealed, unmoving, stuck in his nostrils and throat like clear resin.
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bug nut november
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✦ new cunt toward enemy
✦ story about brothers and bulimia
✦ uploaded Maggot Therapy OST to bandcamp because someone asked
almost done with a “fun” story for an anthology…can’t wait to share ✝️🩸🦋
👁️🗨️ MORE 👁️🗨️cunt toward enemy [s3e3] winner
Lazur crosses the tarmac to the private plane. The mansion burns into the red evening, but only the smoke reaches the runway. The concrete under his feet, a blend of pulverized sand and tar, seems to go on forever in the dark.
💣 MORE 💣acid
I was trying to free a woman from a barrel of acid she was chained to. I’m part of a team trying to do this. we struggle on the rocks of a wide river enclosed by steep wooded slopes. cliffs hang over us, and a high metal bridge. acid begins to drip from tubes and pipes and burn our flesh as we try to save her. we are slipping into the water and our skin is melting and we keep trying.
I lay in bed listening to music. my emotions get so big I can hardly hold it. my whole life I was crushed under a huge sadness. I try to fly free. My highest goal is to create something beautiful. it breaks me as it moves through me. it puts me back together. I need to claw and hurt and show. I am weak but stubborn. Everything I predicted as a child came true. dreams are the hardest thing to hold onto because they hurt the hands and the heart, deeply. I need to show you…